So, I realized that I jumped to conclusions when Matt and I sat down to talk about VT. Granted, he was not chosing the right words, but I made the assumption that he was not willing to try to make it work during my 10 week stint in Burlington, VT. He also made some assumptions about me wanting a serious commitment from him before I left (something that after 3 months, he is not quite ready to do). All I wanted was for him to say he would try to make it work. No one can say for sure how the distance will affect things, but I think we both agree that it's worth giving it our best shot!
Of course he read my blog yesterday and was really sad at the finality in what I wrote. I guess my new reaction to relationships is to cut and run when they are getting difficult. I think I am afraid to make the mistake of staying in a bad relationship for longer than I should again. My friends made me realize that that is not a good reason to end a good relationship now.
I think I also scared Matt by saying I was thinking of a future... he isn't quite there yet, but admits that he is headed in that direction. I'm thinking about this coming summer and next year... no one is ready for marriage yet! No worries, Matt. :-p
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Intense competition in Burlington
Matt, Moriah and I headed up to Penguin Plunge in Burlington. Matt and Moriah both jumped into freezing cold Lake Champlain the following morning to raise money for the Vermont Special Olympics. I was smart enough to stay on land and witness the event.
Here they are the night before battling it out for the RockEm SockEm Robot championship belt. The Vermont Pub and Brewery has many games to entertain yourself with while you wait for a table. We drew quite a crowd, and I ended up with a sore thumb by the time we were seated.
Here they are the night before battling it out for the RockEm SockEm Robot championship belt. The Vermont Pub and Brewery has many games to entertain yourself with while you wait for a table. We drew quite a crowd, and I ended up with a sore thumb by the time we were seated.
Best Friends
Erik and I visited with Zack over Christmas break and here they are playing with the camera on my laptop. These two have been friends since age 1... doesn't look like they have matured much since then.
It was great to be able to visit with Zack before heading back to Boston. I think it's crazy that he is all grown up now with a beautiful apartment and a real job. Erik will hopefully get there soon. Actually he is graduating in May. I'm very excited about the trip out there.
It was great to be able to visit with Zack before heading back to Boston. I think it's crazy that he is all grown up now with a beautiful apartment and a real job. Erik will hopefully get there soon. Actually he is graduating in May. I'm very excited about the trip out there.
Friday, February 16, 2007
A lot to report...
Wow, so apparently it has been over 2 months since I last posted anything. I wanted to upload pictures from the holidays, but have not gotten any of them from my dad or aunt yet. I also have a couple of fun pictures of Matt and I tooling around on my laptop, but those don't really feel appropriate any more. I am sad to report that we are no longer a couple. I would fill you in on what happened, but I don't quite understand it myself. This kind of caught me off guard, as I actually found myself thinking about a future with him.
In related news, I am moving back to Burlington, VT for another 10 week clinical. I'm not as excited this time, as I had hoped to finally be at a Boston hospital closer to friends and well, Matt. I refer to it as related news, as it was the catalyst for the breakup. I don't think he wanted another long distance relationship even if it was only for 10 weeks. I'm pretty torn up about it, but I guess I need to put that aside and start planning for my move in March. 2 weeks! It is bitterly cold up there, and I hope to at least get some time on the slopes otherwise I'll just wish I was living in warmer weather. Why can't I get placed in CA? Ok, so I'm not a huge cali fan... what about Seattle or Denver? I would love to live near Erik or my Boston friends who have migrated to Seattle.
This semester is winding down and I find myself less motivated to study and just wishing I was already out of grad school. Perhaps I should have picked a year long program instead of a 3 year one. I don't even remember the last time I wasn't stressed out. I guess there is a light at the end of the tunnel, as my year long clinical is starting in September. I just need to make it till then...
In related news, I am moving back to Burlington, VT for another 10 week clinical. I'm not as excited this time, as I had hoped to finally be at a Boston hospital closer to friends and well, Matt. I refer to it as related news, as it was the catalyst for the breakup. I don't think he wanted another long distance relationship even if it was only for 10 weeks. I'm pretty torn up about it, but I guess I need to put that aside and start planning for my move in March. 2 weeks! It is bitterly cold up there, and I hope to at least get some time on the slopes otherwise I'll just wish I was living in warmer weather. Why can't I get placed in CA? Ok, so I'm not a huge cali fan... what about Seattle or Denver? I would love to live near Erik or my Boston friends who have migrated to Seattle.
This semester is winding down and I find myself less motivated to study and just wishing I was already out of grad school. Perhaps I should have picked a year long program instead of a 3 year one. I don't even remember the last time I wasn't stressed out. I guess there is a light at the end of the tunnel, as my year long clinical is starting in September. I just need to make it till then...
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